Paragraph from the novel Replay


? How can one change his humdrum life that is regular as the moon's orbit around the earth, and deserve no better metaphor than "the moon's orbit around the earth". How can one escape from the route coerced upon him by his fate?
There were the walks, the Saturday walks he had initiated in the hope that they would engender some sort of occurrence.
On these walks, he used to tread down Borochov street to King George avenue, then stride up to Allenby Boulevard and from there continue down to the Promenade, turn north and then usually stop off at the Sheraton Hotel on the Yarkon Street to sit in the lobby, rest and gaze at the aging female tourists. Sometimes he would also read a book and after a fair amount of time in which nothing occurred, as usually was the case, he would head out again with renewed strength and lowered expectations to continue up Frishman street towards King George before completing the circle on Borochov.
A long walk for a heavy man like him. Six kilometers and four hundred and twenty meters. On rare occasions, he would follow a man or woman who caught his attraction infusing a hope that the followed one will lead him out of his boring life into a challenging and exiting one. In such occasions he would let himself stray from his usual course, trailing behind them to the point they vanished into the other side of their lives (the entrance door to an apartment building, a bus sailing away to unknown realms, the slammed door of a car) leaving him on a dead end. To spare himself the inevitable disappointment, he usually kept to his regular route, repeating to himself time and again like a mantra: something will happen to me today. Today, something will happen to me. Today, something will definitely occur. Something must take place. I deserve something to happen already. These walks, which he held on a regular basis, he secretly called: "The Walks of Hope". On each of them, he passed seven hundred and twenty four people. This was the number he reached after calculating the average of eleven walks on which he counted only the people who passed by him or sat in the cafés he stepped into. Seven hundred and twenty four different people. Seven hundred and twenty four life stories that were probably much more fascinating than his. Out of them, fifty six percent were women (405). Towards a third of them (135), aged fourteen to fifty, he felt various degrees of sexual attraction. Statistically, it wasn't improbable to assume that a third of the third felt a similar attraction towards him, so it would be very reasonable to say that there were forty five women he could, fuck, screw, bone, nail, smash, adore, torture, beat, worship, love, yes love; it all depended on the kind of relationship that would develop with each and every one of them, if only any relationship would develop. Unfortunately, whether due to lack of luck or to certain incompetence, nothing happened with any of them. Along with all the others that had crossed his path, they too vanished into their lives the moment they disappeared from sight. He faded into his own at the same spot, geographically and mentally, from which he set out on his walks - his apartment, just two or three hours older. Apart from exchanging some essential words with the waitresses that took down his order in the cafés and the hotel lobby, he almost never uttered a word during these walks. There was a lot of silence in his life, despite the fact that he lived in a constant commotion of various electronic devices and a mix of conversations led by him and with him, and was equipped with every available form of communication - cell phone, state-of-the-art computers with a modem and fax (two desktops at the home and the office and one laptop), a connection to the internet, e-mail.
In the summer, he would complete the walks covered in sweat and in the winter, if it suddenly rained, his clothes would get soaked. The feeling that he was missing out on things, which accompanied him in almost every state of consciousness, would abandon its metaphysical nature and, on account of the calculations, take on a more concrete character. Forty five women on each walk. Fifty such walks each year meant 2250 women, an impressive crop by any standard. In the nine years of walking - which he kept to meticulously, following doctor's orders that were prescribed after he experienced mild heart failure - he had passed twenty two thousand five hundred women, with whom, according to all reasonable probability, something should have happened: an easygoing exchange of words; small talk; a joint visit to the movies; a weekend in Eilat; a fascinating discussion about the problem of deconstruction in art and architecture; a wild romance; a quickie in the restaurant's restrooms. Let's say that he didn't take certain variables into consideration and that there was a fifty percent probability of error. 11250 women were still plenty. With a little more courage, he thought during lunch, I could have escaped my own life and become someone else long ago...."

關閉按鈕
關閉按鈕
主站蜘蛛池模板: 久久精品国产亚洲AV网站| 国产AV国片精品一区二区| 99精品国产在热久久无毒不卡| 日本熟妇色一本在线观看 | 性高湖久久久久久久久aaaaa| 久久综合狠狠色综合伊人| 欧美日韩视频精品一区二区| 免费人成网站在线观看欧美 | 好大好硬别停老师办公室视频| 久久久无码精品亚洲日韩按摩 | 国产亚洲精品自在久久| 激情欧美人xxxxx| 国产精品自产拍在线观看花钱看 | 在线黄视频网站| 中国一级特黄高清免费的大片中国一级黄色片| 最新69堂国产成人精品视频| 卡通动漫精品一区二区三区| 高岭家の二轮花未增删| 国产真实伦实例| 91亚洲精品自在在线观看| 天天干天天干天天| 一级毛片60分钟在线播放久草高清在线 | 欧美最猛性xxxx| 亚洲综合无码无在线观看| 高清欧美一区二区三区| 国产精品亚洲专区无码WEB| 98精品全国免费观看视频| 天天摸天天碰天天爽天天弄| 一级毛片免费播放男男| 无翼乌无遮挡h肉挤奶百合| 久久狠狠色噜噜狠狠狠狠97| 最近中文字幕大全高清视频| 亚洲六月丁香六月婷婷色伊人 | 国产欧美日韩va| 337p色噜噜| 国产香蕉一区二区三区在线视频| japanesexxxx乱子老少配另类| 忍者刺客在线观看完整中文免费版| 丰满爆乳一区二区三区| 日本免费一区二区三区最新vr| 久久精品国产99国产精2020丨|